Feeling sorry for myself...

Right now, I feel sorry for myself, and I hate that. Because this feeling intertwines with self loathing and the vision of myself as a total procrastinating loser.

I'm at the bottom level of professional motivation, but I can't quit - 1) because I don't want my family to have any less comfort; 2) because I don't have the guts to give everything up to live my dream of living off my crafts...

And tell you what: it totally suuuuuuuuuuuuuucks.

The worse bit is that I have a perfect solution at hand that is totally realizable, but I always leave it for tomorrow, instead of picking up my scissors, plugging my sewing machine, and getting to work.

Fuck me.